It took lots of guts...

...to stay in that swimming pool today. True to my word I woke up a little earlier than usual (2 p.m.) and got my rear to the gym. The pool has 3 lanes and only 1 was occupied so I was feeling good about being there. It's still a struggle to be in a swimsuit around other people but I got in the water as quick as possible and got to it determined to swim 10 laps. Here's how my thinking goes:
1- Okay, 10 laps, no biggie. Lets use the kickboard on the first one.
2- Just a little winded so this time freestyle
2 1/2- Why can't I remember how to breathe? I'm bailing out and doing the breaststroke
3- Backstroke
4- Why are there more guys showing up NOW!!
5- Okay, all 3 lanes full...maybe I should stop now?
6- Sure Mr. Speedo high school guy, we can share a lane.
7- Good Lord he swims fast...jerk
8- Backstroke seems to be the way to go.
9- Gotta stop and catch my breath. WHY IS THIS SO FREAKING HARD??
10- Man there is really a crowd in here now...thank goodness I am DONE!

So, I did it. 10 laps isn't really alot but its a great start. I was very proud of myself and am determined to get serious again. Going back tomorrow and I am going to swim 11 laps!

Is it REALLY that hard?

No, it's not. It's not so hard to stay diligent and dedicated to a task or project. So why can't I get my act together and blog more often? It's not for lack of time. I have plenty of empty graveyard hours here at work. So, why? Well, I feel like I have been faltering a bit in ALL of my goals and plans and I don't want to talk/blog about it. BUT the only way to get back in the saddle is to think about all the great things that come with a healthier lifestyle. I did go back to the gym last week...once. I went and swam for about 40 minutes, thought I would die, and haven't been back. I am going to go back tomorrow. I will feel so much better. Right now I am feeling so lousy it isn't even worth mentioning. I guess we all struggle with a bit of depression from time to time. So, short and not so sweet but a blog entry none the less. I will update again tomorrow.

Welcome back...

I guess I took a good long summer break from the ole' blog! I haven't been in the right frame of mind for many many many things, blogging included. But I am back! I am feeling responsible and accountable for the things I do for myself and for my health. I have switched gyms because I am going to start swimming. Even riding the bike began to make the pain in my feet unbearable. It is sort of ridiculous but I haven't exercised in a month and my feet haven't been killing me like they were. Does that mean the plantar faciitis is gone? Hardly. Does that mean the answer is not exercising? Absolutely not. I am more determined than ever. But the doctor told me it may take getting into a swimming routine as a LAST RESORT to get in good cardio weight loss before having to have surgery. I have been slowly easing back into my weight watchers program as well. There is no excuse for failure because it isn't a hard program to follow. And it works. However I just got back from an awesome retreat to Hi Vali and we do not count points on vacation...period!! Too much fun had with cooking out and celebrating with friends and family. But back to the real world and my quest for a healthy, well balanced life.